Most of the time, I’m the happy-go-lucky moral leader you all love and enjoy.
A moral leader for the whole family!
I strike dramatic poses. I say dramatic things. I get into dramatic conflicts. I write out my dramatic feelings.
Oh, it is all such fun. So grand! So childish.
And then the loss comes rolling in. I’ll be silly on my blog, I’ll be clowning on my live cam, and then I realize that I am 43, never married, no children, tenuated ties to others, little community. And that feeling of loss keeps expanding until it weighs down my heart and I just feel hollow inside.
